COMING TO A CLOSE

Its the end of the semester and my last final is friday, I've realized alot of things. Second semester was not like a period of growth but a period of assurance and revealations of who I will become and what paths I choose. Everything that my parents have taught me since birth is true, they are wise and I thank them for raising me with care and instealing me with wisdom. When you are trying to grow and move to another level, no one does it the same, no one enters the same level at the same time. Some people are in your life to show you that you can achieve greatness while others are since to block you from goals. People's personalities can be wrapped up and misery and they can not be helped, so you let them go through their routine. It will take all your energy to steer a lost soul to the light when they are insulting you every step of the way. Growing can not happen if you are with people who did not comprehend the definition of growth and if growth is not in their world that will not understand your actions. The only thing they will do is suck you into their world, their job is now to convert you because it's fun to them, you're like their new experiment. But you know deep inside you are destined for growth but their path collides with yours and it's a struggle of opposites. This is when you must leave this person because you guys are on different pages and it may take years for them to see the world the way you see. Their are different friends for different moods and you can't force a mood on someone. IF YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE YOU WILL NEVER STEAR AWAY FROM YOUR ORIGINAL PATH AND EVEN IF YOU DO YOU'LL STILL COME BACK. I'M THROUGH MY LITTLE DISCOURSE WAS FULL OF LIFE LESSONS AND I ALWAYS KNEW MY PATH I JUST WANTED TO KNOW WHAT IF I DIDN'T KNOW, WHAT A SCARY THOUGHT...THE UNKNOWN!!

Dress up Ain't For Everyone

There are so many types of hairstyles for African American women that it would take 1o more blogs to go into detail. Weaves come in so many different textures and numerous colors if I every wore one I won't know which one to pick. But living with natural hair in the state of Florida, it's a pain straighting it because of the humidity. Humidity causes my fresh press hair to look like a just poured a bucket of water on it, so I decided to stop fighting and I do twists out, braid outs, cornrows, bantu knots ect. The curly pattern for braidouts are wonderful but you can get the same affects with weaves which results is this real or fake? As I sat in the library today I witness that scenario a guy hold the door for a girl with curly red brown hair said, "I like your curls". She responded "Oh me, thank you". He said "It's natural right"? Her response was "No" as he said, "What it's not?" while still holding the door. Interesting isn't it it's getting harder to tell the real hair from weave. I have to admit sometimes I can't tell because it's blending so well. I can even buy a weave that matches the texture of my hair for my braidouts to appear longer. But my question is when you take out the weaves and perms do you still love your hair, your texture, yourself. Do you love yourself more when you're made up with big hair and makeup because sometimes we can't all play dress up. Sometimes you have to let that weave out and unleash your true texture. Just know you have to face yourself real or fake hair in that mirror and make sure you have that confidence and self-esteem before you dress up so dressing down won't be a let down. Love from within and love deep before you love the outside me.

The "Real" Phoenix

A DESCRIPTION OF CLOTHES

Whenever a woman gets dressed up wearing something revealing everyone questions her "Who are you getting dressed up for". Why does it have to be that she is dressed up for someone, why can't she be dressed up for herself because she like the way the clothes enhances her best attributes. If she knows she looks good then she will feel go and maybe have a productive day but the clothes do not tell people how she thinks or who she is. People tell people how to think or people tell people to judge a person by what they wear. Society will always be judgemental, it's a way of life you can't help it, I understand that yet a girl is not a hoe based on what material she puts on her body. Women can look sexy and should be able to wear whatever they want without being labeled but it's not reality. So when a woman wants to look sexy just because she is proud of her body there will always be prowlers thinking they know you for the material she puts on that day. Clothes do not make people act a certain way people do.

WHAT IF SYNDROME?

The only way to get over something is admitting how you feel, accepting and finding other things to occupy your time. By occupying your time your feelings will fade. I've re-named infatuation the "what if syndrome" because you never find out if anything is true; you just keep wondering and dreaming. The only way to stop infatuation is to believe in your reality, stay in touch with the present not the past or the future. And when it comes it will come and be in front of you in the flesh. And when you figure out what or who your infatuation really is then you will be able to evaluate your true reality. There will be no more wondering in dreams of what will happen because reality is real. Infatuation is false, it will never be what you thought until you experience it.

The Phoenix

A SHORT REVELATON

ITS SO ANNOYING WHEN YOU CAN'T GET SOMETHING OFF YOUR MIND...IM DO WHAT I DID FIRST SEMESTER IT'S THE ONLY WAY TO GO.....CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUTTA HERE...NY IS GONNA BE A BREATHE OF FRESH AIR CAUSE I'M UP TO MY WITS END, I'M READY TO RELAX AND I'VE LEARNED A VALUABLE LESSON I LOOK BETTER DOING ME, I LOOK BETTER WHEN I'M BUSY...AN IDLE MIND IS THE DEVIL'S WORKSHOP...I CONCUR THE BEST QUOTE EVER..I'LL NEVER FOLLOW THE CROWD INTO THE DARKNESS AGAIN IT'S SCARY NOT KNOWING AND LIVING IN A HOLE...I'M THE GREASTEST AS ALWAYS..LOVING ME MORE EACH DAY! I FOUND ME NOW ALL I NEED IS HIM AND THEM AND I'LL BE STRAIGHT.

THE PHOENIX

QUESTIONS WITH NO ANSWERS!!!!!!

IT FUNNY HOW CHICKS SAY THEY AINT CRAZY BUT THEY WILL FIGHT FOR SOMEONE WHO THEY AINT EVEN WITH, CRAZY SELFISH, POSESSIVE, OBESSIVE GIRLS CALM DOWN YA'LL NOT MARRIED SO WHY YOU CUFFIN WHEN YOU KNOW YOU DON'T CARE FOR THE BROTHA.....DUDES DON'T BE WEAK AND WOMEN I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY SMDH...WHY DO YA'LL BOTHER WITH A RELATIONSHIP WHEN YOU PUT IN HALF OF YOURSELF?..I HAVE MANY QUESTIONS FOR THIS WORLD AND THEY'RE SOME DUMB THEY CAN'T ANSWER ONE

MY "PRECIOUS" LIFETIME

Throughout my 18 years of living and having conversations, people have analyzed me as a good girl or the unique one of the group. I have been called poetic, laid-back, kind-hearted, inspiring, truthful, dependable, intelligent, optimistic and I have qualities of a leader. With all of that being said I've come to realize, maybe I'm making up stuff but this is what I see, people try hard to be something they are not around me or uphold some sort of expectations that I don't even know about, I guess you can say they're trying to impress me. But I feel as though people think they need to act civilized around me or they will be judged. But besides being judged they feel a need to protect me from the evils of the world yet they try to corrupt me at the same time. They think I'm too nice and they can't wait until I blow a fuse, everyone releases their feelings yet people don't understand I'm not the type to yell, scream or curse you out. That's just not me and even though they admire that I stay true to myself they can't wait until I crack. It's funny people in your life want the best for you and some try to want the best for you but jealously holds them back. Other people may look at me like I'm inexperience because I have not been through a train wreck or ran through the wash and they're right I have not but I have my own battles and I choose the road where it doesn't have to be so harsh because I wanted to live my life that way. Some people think if you haven't struggled you have not lived, I disagree, living is when you are content with whats in front of you but you do not settle for what's in front of you. Yes, there was a struggle to get where you're at but why make it so hard? No one is given a golden spoon and if you were you would not want it because you would be so bored. So, just because my obstacles are not so called "harsh" in your world it does not mean it was easy. This does not mean that I am judging you and that I can not help you. If anything it feels good to give advice but people insist you have to go through heartache and pain and other stuff before you can relate to me, you have to become older. What ever thats b.s. it truly is, I can help only when you open your mind and listen. This is my "Precious" lifetime!

The Phoenix

WHAT HAPPENS NEXT?

What happens when you are destined to be great but you lose sight of your map and your road has turned into a jungle? what happens then? What happens when negativity is what is around you and your dreams tell you everyday your wasting time? What happens then? When your mind knows you have to change but change seems to get further away from you everyday? What happens then? When you don't want to give up yet you find yourself is not taking the intaiative. What happens when you keep feeling like your missing something and your settling? What happens when you can't distinguish playtime from work? What happens when?

Your dreams are all you have left act them out and become more than a dreamer.

Become more, grow be who you truly are even though you are not like those around

Find yourself again do not lose your power

The Phoenix

AKA © Precious Dorch-Robinson

WHAT IS 2010?

This is the year where nothing is held back, regrets do not even have a sliding door because they do not exist. Say whatever comes to mind, do whatever you like, live free. Sounds like Paradise or maybe Pandora's box. 2010 has become the year of accessibility, where anything is possible, a place where relationships are continued. When without aim, OooVoo, Skype formspring, facebook, myspace you would just be wondering what happened to that person. 2010 is the year of reconnecting and salvishing feelings you would of put away or never thought of, is this good is this bad? Do we really need to know what someone did today, what will they do tomorrow? Is this really important to consume our lives with a lifeless conversation when our mind is idle. The options we have are endless but our conversations are sometimes meaningless. Associates fill up our phones and inner circles become smaller. Relationships are what can you do for me, how do I get rid of you, what can you bring to the table? Everyone is so accessible that they are disposable, relationships have become meaningless because years of being together has becomes a few weeks or months but that's about it. People run through relationships like Usain Bolt crossing the finish line wining 1^st place in the 200m. So if I won't see you tomorrow or any other day why won't I keep this 100 and lay out my whole life story. Lie out my life story, drink with you, get high with you and accidently multiply with you! I didn’t mean too I mean it was a one in a lifetime chance to be with you and now we are bonded together because we rushed, we thought we didn’t have enough time. And now we have an eternal bond with no ring, or paper. So I ask what is 2010 I cycle of I don't care what happens I'm only doing this today and tomorrow I won't see you ever again (I hope!) Happy Easter!!! © Precious Dorch-Robinson

The Phoenix